Going through the (e)motions-Day 3-5

This yoga challenge has me going through the ringer and it's only day 5.  Physically, I feel great even though I am now using muscle rub on my hamstrings, calves and shoulders. Worry not because I have about 7 different creams, oils and balms for sore muscles.  I collect them like some folks collect stamps.  Hit me up if you want recommendations.   I will treat myself to a soak in a tub of Epsom Salt and eucalyptus oil this weekend.

Mentally, I am feeling relieved and angry.  I am feeling relieved for allowing myself to let things go and put it "all on the mat". At the same time, I am angry with myself for having things to let go in the first place.  I know yoga is not a panacea but really?  Shit has been coming up that I haven't thought about in years. Buried resentments, past wrongs done to me and by me have been creeping into my thoughts.  I don't know what to make of it.  I am just riding the wave knowing this too shall pass. Of course I want it to be over sooner than later but I need not rush the process as it has much to teach me, especially about my life and the choices I have made. 

Yeah...

Soo, the vegan diet challenge is still going strong.  I have started reading and subscribing to more vegan blogs/facebook pages to stay motivated and steal recipes.  I haven't made anything that is outside my comfort zone yet and am a little bummed about that. I really want to go all in with this to truly explore all vegan cooking has to offer. Thus, my goal is to tackle vegan baking before my 30-day challenge is up.  I adore Babycakes and if I can get my stuff to taste half as good, I might open up shop.  Now if I could just find a vegan bread that isn't hard as stone and dry as my feet in the winter.

Something I noticed that is still an issue is the definition of vegan.  Is it just a food choice or do you have to totally reject all animal based products? I am in the middle.  I don't use products made from animals that are killed solely for their fur or skin.  Thus I wear leather because I know the cow will be eaten but I won't wear mink.  I use this hierarchy to justify my continued use of products I enjoy. Is it right?  I don't know.  However, I view veganism as a choice.  And since it is a choice, I feel I should be able to choose how I view veganism.  Hell, Eskimos and many nomadic people have to rely on animals for survival.  I am sure PETA isn't throwing blood on Eskimos in the Arctic.